This semester continues to exhaust me. I simply don't have enough time to get the priorities done that I would like to get done. Hmmm? Can that statement be true? If they are priorities, by definition wouldn't I find time to get them done?
My life is complex...not really. In fact, if I let it be, it would probably be simple. Fact, I do have to work a certain amount. The jobs I have have deliniated schedules, most of which I cannot get a sub for. The duties of those jobs have strict timelines and help me not to otherwise procrastinate, more.
The truth is that I have little free time. In between jobs but not at home, I literally have only 10 hrs to work on stuff during the week. So far, it has been difficult to make this time productive with the 1 or 2 hr gaps I have. After that, I only have 14 hrs per week at home not asleep.
I wish I was exaggerating. Those are the times that I prepare for the next shift or class or study for myself. 24 hrs during the entire 7 day week. No time for friends, no time for family, no time to think of what is next, only what I am doing then. No time for me, for health, for eating right, for exercise.
I have good intentions, but I can't, don't want to get up for church on Sunday. I don't want to go for a walk. I know the long term results. I shouldn't be here right now, but I am. I have to finish the semester out. I need to give up on changing for now. It is only frustrating me. Weight is up 216.2
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